I went back to the doc and told her about what I did. At 150mg there was a faint rash but I'm not vain, so we continued it, although at one point it seems like she was going to try something else, then thought better of it.
As the last couple weeks have gone on the rash is more than faint, now, and itches occasionally, but it's not driving me nuts, so I'm fine with it. It's "livable" for me; for people who put on makeup everyday and care how they look, it might not be, but I don't wear low-cut tops anyway. Only when I wear my modest v-necks can you see it, and it's not obvious to most people.
The more important question at this point, is if the medication is effective to any degree and if so how much, and then is that enough? I'm having a hard time assessing this, so I'll just see how I do over time . . . . my next shrink appt. is 6 weeks from the last one; the secretary said that's how it's starting to be now and I am a little frustrated because that means I'll have to make an extra trip in to her office, an hour round trip, for my ADD medication once a month.
If she's too busy to see her patients as frequently as they need to be seen, she's got too many patients, imho . . . if this keeps up I may stop treatment entirely. I'm not going to make extra trips for longer than 5-6 months. Especially since I'm scared of her anyway, and now that I know most bipolar meds won't work for me I don't see the point of trying any more if this one doesn't pan out . . . . I may try another if she switches me but like I say, if she is seeing pt's every 6 weeks, and maybe it'll get worse to every 7-8 weeks who knows, if she can't manage her patient load, then that's that.
Yeah lots of fortune-telling and stuff in there. I wonder if she's going to lose other patients from being too busy to see them, requiring extra trips in for prescriptions for some of them . . .
On another note I'm feeling like I've put my foot in it again, but that's nothing new for me. STUPID. Labeling . . . ugh.
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