I just read here, after I googled it, that other people have had something similar, on atypical antipsychotics.
This has happened to me noticeably twice now, within an hour or two of taking my nightly meds (Lamictal & Seroquel; I'm supposed to take Lamictal in the morning but I always forget.)
I start wriggling around almost frantically; the sensation of wanting to crawl out of your own skin is quite awful and difficult to describe. You feel a very strong urge to get out of your skin (and for me, the left leg is particularly worse than everywhere else.) You HAVE to wriggle, writhe, and otherwise move, because not doing so feels unbearable.
This sensation is so much worse in my left leg, that you feel not exactly a loathing for it, but you quite dislike it as a result of the distress it is causing you. This distress, this crawling out of your skin sensation/desire, makes you want to leave your containment within your skin behind, especially of the left leg for me.
Now, I don't LITERALLY want to get rid of my skin as that would be, um, inadvisable, dangerous, deadly, etc. not to mention horrifically painful, and at least a little bit insane, or psychotic.
However, I can't emphasize enough how horrid it feels to feel like your body is something distressing, or like some part of your body is, or whatever. I mean, I know most every health problem is unpleasant, but what I'm talking about is feeling like your body or parts thereof are to a degree separate from your self, from the whole of you, and that they are something it feels like you would like to have some distance from, if only for a time. I'm not explaining this well, I know I'm not too fond of my head when I have a migraine, but there's not even a slight sense of otherness or alienness, alienation from your own body or parts, that there is with this.
The people at the link above say that the feeling is because of the intense urge to move, but for me it feels the other way around; the crawling out of your skin desire is what's causing the urge, the compulsion, the body's DEMAND to move. Although I can see that the demand to move also contributes to want to crawl out of your skin, and thus shake the distress off. The distress feels like the confinement of your skin is exacerbating the distress, and the distress is exacerbating the feeling of being confined by your skin.
Thank heaven it goes away within the hours, but oh is this feeling horrible!
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